Me Without You

Guess what!? I never thought I would ever say this but....



I am so dang happy I will be spending eternity with Mr. Saje Steven Hurd. Hannah Hurd just rolls off of the tongue doesn't it? I suppose you wanna hear the story and how this charming man proposed so here it goes.

HOW WE MET:
Let's rewind to around March 10, 2010. The one and only Utah basketball game I have EVER gone to because my roommate and I were SO BORED. It was BYU vs UTAH so it was a "big game" even theough BYU creamed us (note to self Utah sucks at basketball). We didn't want to sit in the student section because there were hardly any seats left so we hiked up to the top where it looked like there were a few available seats. We went to sit down a few seats in front of these two boys, but were afraid we might be stealing someones spot. The boys noticed that we were contemplating sitting there and one said, "You can sit by us, nobody is sitting here..." Little did I know, I would possibly marry this guy. We agreed to sit by them and they introduced themselves to us. I remember thinking that Saje was a very different name. I sat next to Saje's step brother Koy who was friendly, and talked to my roommate and I the whole time. Saje (who was involved in the game) hardly talked to us. After the game, they said they were glad to meet us and left. Here I'm thinking, "HELLOOO were we not cute enough for them to ask for our numbers?!" You snooze you lose! Sheesh.

Luckily, as fate would have it, Saje got a second chance. On a Sunday afternoon, (a week or two after the basketball game) I went up to my bishops office for an interview. There were a ton of people up there and one open seat. The person sitting next to the open seat offered me a seat by him. After he asked, I thought to myself, this guy looks SO FAMILIAR. It was after he turned to me and said, "Hi I'm Saje" that it clicked that he was the guy who offered me a seat at the basketball game. Jeez he is such a gentleman right? Always offering the seats next to him. But that is besides the point. ANYWAYS, after he said, " Hi I'm Saje" and it clicked that he was the one who offered me and my roommate a seat at the game (cause really who could forget that name?), I said, "I know you are.." When he got this SUPER confused look on his face, I said, "We sat by each other at the basketball game a few weeks ago.." and then he remembered me! We exchanged numbers and not only sat by each other in sacrament, but texted the whole day. We started going to the ward activities and hanging out a little bit. The week after our "love at second site" it was Spring Break. What are the odds that we were BOTH going to be in California? He drove with some friends, and I flew and met up with family. We tried to plan Disneyland on the same day because the odds that the places we were staying were close were very slim, considering California is a huge state. When I arrived in California, he asked where I was staying, and we found out that his friends house, and my sisters house, were only 2 miles away from each other. What are the odds? I mean seriously? We hung out almost every night, and went to Disneyland together. When we got home, he finally asked me out on an official date. Ever since then, we have been dating off and on (the off times were when he would be gone for four months of the summer selling security).

TWO YEARS LATER:
I finally figured out through a lot of prayer, fasting, stress, thinking, going to the temple, deleting my Facebook, and giving myself alone time, that I knew that I could not live without Saje. I mean let's get real, what are the odds that I needed a seat two times and Saje was always the one sitting there, we ended up being in the same ward, and being two miles away in Cali was just crazy! Saje always would say jokingly, "IT'S A SIGN!!!!" ha, it's true they were.

Saje has always helped me through my struggles, he has been there for me in my hard times, and cared for me when I was sick or sad. His patience helped me understand what the meaning of being in love was. It's about overcoming struggles and hard times, enjoying all the good times, and loving each other through the annoyed times. Even though I wasn't fully ready to commit, he gave me my space, after doing everything in his power to make sure I was happy. I could never forget about how amazing he truly was to me, how much fun we had, and how much he helped when I needed it. Therefore, I finally agreed that marrying him was the best thing I could ever do :).

THE PROPOSAL:
First of all, two weeks before he proposed, we went to Sierra West to discuss the types of rings we liked. We ended up designing "the perfect ring" by putting all of the things we loved into one ring. They told us that we needed to come a week from that day to look at a wax mold of the ring we designed to make sure it was exactly what we wanted before they actually made it. When we went to go see the mold, it looked exactly how we wanted, so we went ahead and told them to cast it! They told us it could take up to three weeks to make. Little did I know, a week and a day later it would be on my finger!

So April 5, 2012 Saje and I were watching movies after school, while I was doing some planning. He is an avid gym goer and said that he was planning on going to the gym for a few hours with a friend. I love that Saje is so buff and fit, but he sometimes gets hung up at the gym because he plays basketball after he works out FOR HOURS! I was really hoping that he wouldn't go for so long, but he promised me he would only be a few hours. He said if I let him go he would take me to get ice cream after. I agreed OBVIOUSLY. So a few hours later he came back and we were on our way to Iceburg.

While we were in the drive through waiting for our mini Grasshopper shake, I noticed there was a trash can about five feet away from the car. He bet me that I couldn't make it if I tried to throw something in there. I took the bet and started searching the car for something I could throw. I hurried and opened the glove compartment and this cute little book fell out.



I immediately found out that I had unleashed something that was supposed to have been a surprise for later, but I thought it was so cute of him to sneakily buy me a cute book, and I had no idea how he got it (because we spend almost every second together) that I started to cry. PS he knows I love this cute children's book called "I Like You" by Sandol Stoddard because it reminds me of all of the people in my life that I love and it makes me cry, so he bought this one knowing that it would remind me of him. That is why I thought this surprise book was such a cute thing he did for me. ANYWAYS, he then said, "well that was supposed to be your surprise for about 10 minutes from right now..." So that made me feel a little better because I thought I was ruining a surprise that was supposed to be happening a week from then. After we got our shake and started driving, he told me to start reading the book. The book is so cute, that I have to share it with you.

"Me without you is like, a sky without blue.
A foot without shoe, hair without do.
Cow without moo, dove without coo.
Kung without foo, biker without tattoo.
Ghost without boo, morning without dew.
Restaurant without menu, eskimo without igloo.
Tango without two, party without yahoo.
Peak without view, much without ado.
Harry without You-Know-Who, paddle without canoe.
Chimney without floo, clock without cuckoo.
Cat without mew, detective without a clue.
Kanga without roo, doctor without who.
Wreck without rescue, zoo without gnu.
How without do you do, antique without value.
Rainbow without hue, tea without brew.
Picnic without loo, bells without blue.
Cock without a doodle doo, pool without cue.
Doctor with flu, cook without his sous.
A witch without her brew, yacht without crew.
Mowgli without Baloo, shoo-bee without doo.
Politician without issue, saint without virtue.
Mercenary without coup, Svengali without Ingenue,
Ballerina without tutu, Kubalai Khan without Xanadu.
An unfinished haiku, ram without ewe.
Coochie without coo, yabba without dabba doo.
Muscle without sinew, sneeze without a-a-a-achoo!
Disciple without guru, potty without poo.
Cold fondue, panda without bamboo.
A picture that's askew, a flat kazoo.
A non spicy vindaloo, a book that's overdue.
A knot I can't undo.
Boo hoo hoo hoooooooooo, me without you?! What would I do? Boo! Phew." :)

Once I finished the book he was just parking at Sugarhouse Park. This is considered "our park" because this is where we would have our long talks, break ups, make ups, and where we would go fly kites and have picnics. I told him thank you so much for the cute book, and he said he wanted to give me a hug. We walked out to the front of his car, and while we were hugging he told me reasons why he loved me and that he can't imagine how life would be without me. Then he said that the book was not my only surprise for the night, and he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him!!! I was shocked because I was expecting my ring to take two more weeks to be finished! Basically I love Saje so much, so I SAID YES!!



I later found out that his "two hour gym visit" was actually going to pick up my ring, and book, that little sneaky!



Here is the bling







We are so engaged right now, I even put our song as #1 on my playlist.

SAVE THE DATE!
August 14, 2012
Salt Lake City Temple



THE END
I mean Beginning..

4th Time's A Charm

This weekend. I saw my most favorite band Fun. for the fourth time. Get over it. Here is the story:

Kelli had an extra ticket for the acoustic show at Graywhale Records. I introduced Kelli to Fun., so I commandeered Kelli's extra ticket to the acoustic show. That's only fair right? I wanted to go to the acoustic show (AND SIGNING) because #1 I waited too long to get my ticket to the concert that was going to be later that night, and it was sold out, so I was bummed and #2 ACOUSTIC SHOW AND SIGNING, I would get to meet them! Of course I invited myself!
I found out that another band called Avalanche City was going to be at the concert too so I was even more bummed that I couldn't go to the actual concert. Anywho, I was expressing to Saje how sad and jealous I was that I couldn't be at the concert (which was also the night of the priesthood session) and he surprised me with a ticket that he bought on KSL! He said that he didn't want me to be a loner while he was at priesthood. Isn't he just the best?

Here is a recap of all of the Fun. times I've had (no pun intended):

Sophomore year at the U



Sophomore year at The Venue



Acoustic show yesterday at Graywhale Records:)



In line to meet them.



Here is the deal. This one time my awesome sister gave me a Harry Potter Lanyard. I hooked it up to my camera. I had this brilliant idea to video myself meeting the band members. I turned my video on and just let it hang around my neck. I didn't realize how perfect the video would be. It isn't even cutting anyone's heads off!!!!! I think you could say I could be on a first name basis with Andrew, Nate, and Jack now. What sucks is that I was in shock a little bit (cause I was so excited) that afterwords I thought of all of these great things I could have done or said to them. I'll need to practice a little better before I meet the Harry Potter cast someday. We were only allowed to get one thing signed but I weaseled myself outta that one. Check it out! PS you might have to turn your head to the right...

http://youtu.be/h1ug6QH3hQM



4th time's a charm (as Nate said in the video) at The Venue. Unfortunately we let Jack down by not getting to the front row. It was WAY too packed and I wasn't feeling like fighting someone.



Thanks for allowing me to invite myself Kelli!

Until we meet again Andrew, Nate, and Jack!

Forever 21

For my birthday wish, I wish to be 21 FOREVER. Where is that magic dust when I need it?! 21, flirty, and thriving..

I hope this year doesn't go by too fast. This seriously feels like the best age and I'll tell you why.

*When you turn twenty people say, "Oh how do you like being out of your teens finally?" I think, "I've felt like I was out of my teens for years now..." or they say, "NEXT YEAR YOU'LL FINALLY BE COMPLETELY LEGAL!" and I think, "Yay I can finally.... uhm. Say that I am twenty one!"

*People say, "Oh my gosh are you gonna just go cuh-razy!?!" I know they don't know I don't drink, but I still say, "HECK YES, My birthday is gonna be OFF the HINGES!!!!" Haha just kidding! But seriously...

*Twenty one is not too old, and not too young, its just perfect! I am not just barely out of my teens anymore. People treat me like a person, instead of thinking I don't know anything. I'm not a dang bozo, my dad taught me not to be one YEARS ago.

*I am officially an adult. HOORAAAY!

For some reason, I have always wanted to get carded when I go somewhere JUST because I can. I went with a few friends to this dance club thing. You had to be twenty one and up to enter (stop judging me, "I'm a good girl I am!"-My Fair Lady) They asked for my I.D, and I nonchalantly gave the guy my I.D like I'd been there like a hundred times. He said "Happy late birthday!" and gave me my card back. Yeah, what up.

Saje ordered me not one, but TWO extra virgin Shirley Temples ha. And in Saje's defense, my flash is blinding.



This is my ballet friend Melissa :)



Unfortunately, the club was pretty boring because they were playing techno that night. YOU CANNOT DANCE TO TECHNO! Why do people still think you can? But who cares, I got carded, and got two Shirley Temples at the club. That's all I care about.

BAD NEWS. I planned my wicked awesome birthday party on a blizzardy day. A whole two people showed up. I was SO SAD about it especially because my sister Leslie and I spent all day buying Bunco prizes and making food. The hit of my party was going to be the drink bar. We froze flavored ice cubes, made a Straberry Daiquiri slush, had different drink mixes, and had tons of fruit for our toothpicks. You could do many combinations like this:







What did you expect? I'm 21 we had to have drinks (extra virgin style). Here are the troopers that made it through the snow to my party. Kelli, my roommate Debbie, and of course Harrison.






Wanna know why my birthday is REALLY the best day of the year??? Leslie makes me a KILLER candy bar cake. It just gets better and better. Sorry for all the people who missed out! More for me....





Thanks for coming girls!

Although my party consisting of a whole two friends was awesome, I was still sad that more people couldn't enjoy the best day of the year with me. Saje knew that I was pretty sad, and planned a surprise party for me after work on my real birthday! I got home from work and there was a party. I still had extra cake and drink mixes from my somewhat failed girls night party, but all my friends pitched in to buy more food. It was pretty dang awesome.





My friend that I met at BYU ballet camp over 5 years ago showed up from Orem. I was so happy to see her!



Thanks for the surprise everyone!!!!



My birthday present this year was this 46 incher:



Homework just got that much more exciting :)


Lastly, if anyone wants to get a hold of me, you will need to call, text, or email me because I deactivated my Facebook for a limited time. I am too busy to be on Facebook right now, and I need to focus on myself. It has actually been really REALLY nice not having it! I wasn't really ever "addicted" but I went on just to waste time. It has been nice to actually do something with my time instead :). I may or may not ever get it back because it has been that nice!

Until next time!

Gaurdian Angels

Remember that one time when I jinxed myself by hoping that I would never get in an accident this winter? Well that was today when I almost died.
I was going to visit my sister because it was a holiday and I wanted to have a sisterly outing to plan my birthday party. I left around 9AM, there was a little snow on the ground, but the roads looked clear so I wasn't scared. I saw some cars sliding around on the freeway so I slowed down like crazy. I was in the far left lane, with a bunch of cars behind and around me. Out of NOWHERE I slid on some black ice all the way across the freeway. I was trying not to dodge cars but there wasn't much I could do slipping and sliding around everywhere. I didn't want to smash right into the barrier so I tried turning and the tail end of my car hit the barrier, and I spun around somehow ending up in the middle of the freeway again FACING oncoming traffic. How people stopped is beyond me, because I was sliding ALL OVER. My dad made me feel better by saying that I have a guardian angel watching over me, and that it's probably the same one that watches over him! Perhaps we can all be guardian angels for somebody someday!

Considering that I smashed into the side of the freeway barrier, I don't know how I managed to only get away with this



The light needed immediate repair but the cracked bumper can wait til later I guess...

So then I was like, "Ok my day off WILL NOT BE RUINED!!" but then Saje wasn't feeling good so I spent an hour and a half at Insta Care, and then I had to go to work. Saje and I were determined to make the day better, so after work, we bought S'more making materials. I have a real fireplace that I will be using more often this winter :). Here is Saje being a boy scout.



SUCCESS!!!!



Bad day turned good with hot chocolate with extra mallows and Smore's. S'more's are the BOMB.COM

HAPPY MARTIN LUTHER KING JR DAY!!!

TwentyTwelve.

Is it REALLY 2012?! Did 2011 just fly by for anyone else? I am SO not ready to start my last semester of junior year. I am getting a little (no a lot) anxious to start because my semester is CRAZY. I have major decisions coming my way, school is going to be very difficult, and I have to choreograph like 6 dances for the girls I teach! AH! I am trying to get the girls I teach a little more acquainted with actual ballet music so I will be choreographing their dances this year to Sleeping Beauty (the ballet) music! My younger girls are THRILLED, my older girls... not so much. They basically don't give a crap (at least they made it seem like that when I excitedly told them, and they were like, "oh, ok...") ugh.
In all reality, I have NO clue what 2012 will bring. I've always had a pretty clear picture of what my year will look like when it comes to school, changes, where I'll live, what classes I will be taking, and my plans on school recess. This year though, I honestly have no idea what changes I will run into, where I will be this summer, if I will renew my apt contract, if I'll even like my classes. At this point the only thing I am looking forward to is finishing this semester AND FAST. But then what? I don't know..

I wanted to apologize for not posting in a while. I've been very unhappy with the way my blog has been looking. As you may have heard, I uploaded the blogger app on my phone, and for some reason all of my pictures were saved in my phone gallery. I thought that it was a huge waste of space so I deleted all of the pictures off of my phone to later log onto my blog and see that ALL of my pictures on my blog had been deleted as well. I was upset because I would have to go back and look for all of the pictures and re-post them. I had most of the pictures saved onto an external hard drive so it would just take a long long time to re post everything I lost.
If that wasn't already screwy enough, my hard drive on my computer was having some issues. I went to the apple store the day after I lost all of my pictures on my blog. I have been backing up my computer on my external hard drive for about a year now so when they told me I would have to get a new hard drive for my computer, I was totally ok with it. I had all of my pictures (that weren't on my computer anymore) saved to my external hard drive and I had my whole computer backed up so there would be no problem right?
Of course not, because nothing is that easy when it comes to technology. They restored everything from my computer which was FANTASTIC, but for reasons UNKNOWN they wiped my WHOLE EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE. I have only what was on my computer from my last update. Pictures, videos and data that were only on my external hard drive were ALLLLLLLLLLL gone. You better believe that many tears were shed after figuring that one out.
I went to the apple store with my very buff dad to get it all figured out. They ended up keeping my external hard drive for two more days for the geniuses to try and revive all of the stuff that was lost. I got it back and they gave me a new external hard drive to do additional back ups if something like this happened again, and then gave me my old external hard drive with all the stuff they found. None of it is organized and some pictures and data copied like 200 times. Going through my external hard drive to find everything that was lost will take about a year to do. I still have no clue if they found everything because it has taken me an extremely long time to go through it already. So don't expect my earlier posts to ever look good.

ANYWAYS, that is why my blog has been under serious construction, but I am going to keep posting like it was no big deal. Even though maybe losing some things FOREVER sucks, I still had an amazing holiday season, and I really want to tell you about it.

Saje and I went to temple lights. It was freezing, but it was so pretty as usual.



Saje and I went to Harrison's Pre-School Christmas show to watch him sing, and then we made gingy houses after!





We made our own little graham cracker man to complete the master piece.



Harrison kept getting in trouble for eating his decorations. He did such a good job! Thanks for letting us come Harrison!


I finally flew to AZ where I got to spend quality time with my family and also my friends. I am going to apologize in advanced for not having any pictures of my family.. it seems as though I didn't document the adventures we had, but I really did have fun times with them. My uncle Carl was my buddy during this Christmas. I was glad to have him around, and it was so good to see him! I had a ton of fun playing with my niece Capri, going to movies, and going out to eat with my parents!

My mom made me these pancakes when I woke up one day... If you think your mom is cool, you clearly haven't met mine.



Alex and Carolyn (my two best friends) have decided that they are going to serve missions. I am happy and excited for them, but I will miss them so much! At least it's only a year and a half. They are turning their papers in within the first few weeks of January so they could get there calls and leave while I'm stuck here at school! That meant that over Christmas break, it might have been some of our last times together (with all of us being unmarried) EVER. We went on plenty of adventures together because of this.

We always wear matching jammies for Christmas. These are our new jammies! I think we went to QT about 100 times over break.



We also went to the temple lights, saw a movie, and saw all of the nativities from across the world!



Alex has horses, and I don't know why we have never taken advantage of that earlier, but we finally went! My horse's name was Babe.





We got a big group of people and their siblings to go hike Camelback... turns out everyone and their dog decided to hike that day too. We could not find any parking so we went to a park in Scottsdale to play around and eat our lunches.



On New Years Eve, I stayed at home to play some games with the fam, and then my friends came over and we went to an airplane hanger party. There was a DJ, dancing and we went CRAZY! They even had a photographer so we took advantage of that situation.





Sadly, I had to leave Arizona to get back to Utah for work. I have never been so sad to leave, I saw so many of my friends (shout out to ANNALIESE MECHAM) and got to go on many adventures!. I REALLLLLLY didn't want to go back to reality, and freezing weather.

One last thing that I did before break ended was a Casino Night! Saje's Boss had a surprise birthday and his wife hired a bunch of dealers to come be in charge of random tables. Saje taught me how to play Blackjack. Basically, never take me to a casino. End of story.



The only part about school that I am looking forward to is well... My new backpack. ADI! (short for Adios...)

Think Happy Thoughts..

I'm watching Hook right now, it's been years since I've seen it. I forgot how much I love it. Probably because I love the story Peter Pan. In honor of Mr. Pan, here is my happy thought for the day, it happened to me last night:

Having a headache is no reason to get a bouquet of pretty flowers. To Saje, I guess having a headache is a perfect reason to give someone flowers. Who would have thought flowers cured headaches?



There you go. I wish happy thoughts really lifted you into the air :). Don't forget to check out my previous post below! It doesn't hurt to comment :)

Bangarang!

It's The Holiday Season...

I hope you started singing the Christmas song by Andy Williams after reading my title.. If not, now you can. PS turn off my playlist on the right, it's worth it for this one.



"..hoopdy doo, and dicory doc..."

I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS!!!! Mainly for the food. Seriously. Well, I also love it for spending time with my family too, but sadly I'm gonna be close to an only child this Christmas again (insert MASSIVE frowny face here). At least Junior lives in Arizona. But still, it's not gonna be like the "good old times" when Dallin would come upstairs, wake all of us girls up at 6am, and pretend he didn't look at all of his presents on the way up the stairs.. Crap, I wish I could rewind and run down the stairs at 1880 Springcrest Rd on Christmas morning again! I might have taken for granted all the Christmas's spent with ALL OF MY SIBLINGS. I highly doubt that will happen again! But Mom, please don't cry just yet, (unless it's tears of happiness and joy that your favorite child is coming home for Christmas, how dreadful would it be if I wasn't!). Just think, I will still wait patiently for Dad to turn on the Christmas tree lights before I come in (even though I might sleep in until 8:30), I will STILL believe in Santa (who would probably LOVE to spoil me cause I'll be the only kid in the house), and think about how awesome I am that I'm not with a "significant other" or kids that you also have to buy presents for! I AM SO COOL. Nobody can even deny that I deserve more presents for being SO dedicated to coming home because I REALLY want to see my parents MORE THAN ANYBODY ELSE on Christmas.
See mom, there is no reason to be sad! I LOVE YOU! Oh, and tell Santa that I really want an XBOX Kinect. Maybe his elves wouldn't have to spend so much time making it if they just found a nice one on KSL or something. k.

ANYWHO, this semester has been very busy but I really like to make my weekends worth while, especially for Halloween. This Halloween I got to dress up as two different things. My two best ballet friends and I needed to try and top our costumes from last year (Fantanta's) so we decided to be rock, paper, scissors. As usual, BEST DRESSED ;). Help us with ideas for next year please!!!!



My boy toy and I wanted to go to some Halloween parties so we decided to come up with something clever this Halloween too. Pac Man and his Ghost. Seriously can't get cuter. My two poster board costumes that cost 35 cents plus tax were a HIT this year. We also went with my friend Kelli to an institute dance, she was a rocker girl.






We also went to see my sister Aimee run her Halloween half marathon! It was pretty dang chilly but it was hilarious seeing all of the people dress up in funny costumes as they ran. The most clever costumes were pinatas, a guy in a sumo suit, and a guy dressed as Rainbow Bright. Funny stuff. It was so good to see Aimee, Jason, and all of the kids!





Saje and I were feeling spontaneous a few days ago and decided to make something we have never had before. We were in a breakfast kind of mood so I looked up good pancake recopies. We found chocolate chocolate chip pancakes. YUM. They were very filling, especially when you smother peanut butter on them. It was a really good treat. Sometimes I wonder if my crazy personality rubs off on Saje sometimes....





This year I wasn't able to go to Thanksgiving at my home in AZ or at Leslie's house. Leslie ended up going to AZ this year so I had to figure something out. I had the opportunity to go to Saje's grama's, and his parents for din din, and Aunt Jenny's for dessert! I was well fed and very stuffed this year.



I couldn't decide which pic I liked better so I decided to put this on too...:)



I am so thankful for everyone I love, and the opportunities I have each day. I am glad I am healthy and that my family is too. I'm thankful for my job and people who take care of me when I can't be at home for Thanksgiving. I am thankful that I haven't had to drive much in the snow yet, and that I have warm clothes and a warm place to live. I could go on and on and on.



HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!